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t.t.
12.09.2009 | 8.55 pm

All day I've been having this terrible sinking feeling that I can't seem to shrug off.

But still, I've been trying really hard to be positive: I'm really proud of my apartment. It's home now. Got my studio optimized for those work sessions, my living room's sitting pretty. My bedroom needs a little fixing but, well but.

I'm helping out at the boutique for a day. Albeit, it's only for a day but it's something, a toe back into the waters. I ran into one of my favorite teachers again today. It was nice to catch up for a bit. And after months of not having seen him around, he seems excited for me (and progress).. it seems like everyone has such high expectations of me.

Family life is good. I know my parents care about me. My sister and brother's been calling me with questions. I've been helping out a lot of my friends with their problems; it's good to feel needed and to be of worth. On the surface, it seems like pieces of my life are falling back into my place again

except that I'm missing all of you.
And I hate to admit it but being positive is mentally exhausting.

12.08.2009 | 1.21 am

I'm really missing you tonight.
12.06.2009 | 9.43 pm

I'm not going to lie, I'm really glad that you're back in my life. As friends.. that's what I wanted right? That would be an accurate guess, yes but of course, I always want something more. But for my heart, maybe more is not a good idea. I have to start being more comfortable with myself, more certain, and less afraid cause let's face it, fear changes everything.

But regardless, I am happy that you are back in my life.
11.16.2009 | 4.24 pm

Two christmas ago, I gave you a vietnamese dictionary plus a card with a handwritten note. I included a poem from my favorite book and a note in our language to you. I hope you still have it… even if I don’t remember what that poem is.
11.15.2009 | 3:42 am

I miss you, t. I really do. I saw your car today for a total of 4 times. I couldn't stop myself from taking that one route where i knew where your car would be parked... and that would be in front of her place. It's 3:42 and I just got back and your car was still there. How come you never stay that late at my place with me?

11.15.2009